In A Relationship, Wrap It.

(11.30AM)

Hey everyone.

To those that have been slaves of Facebook, (I'm a pretty valuable Slave there) I'm sure all of you have seen my Relationship Status on Facebook.

I'm in a Relationship.

Wait for it....... with, my computer.

Yes, I know it's sad.

Here are her specs.

AMD Phenom II x4 BE 3.2Ghz

Asus Mobo M4A87TD/USB3

Kingston Value Ram DDR3 1333 - @ GB x2

WD Desktop SATA 500 GB BLUE

ASUS 24x DVDRW SATA BLACK

ASUS EAH5750 FORMULA 1GB GDDR5 PCIE

CoolerMaster ELITE 335

Vantec ION 2 620Watt PSU

Coolermaster Hyper TX 3

AOC E2240VW BLK 21.5 LED

For RM2230! I think its like the cheapest performance gaming rig so far! Got it on National Day.

XD

Don't worry, I'm calling it quits with her by the end of this holiday. After that it'll be a strictly "professional" relationship.

Hahaha.

I do remember saying in the comments that "Computers don't disappoint as much as girls"

Ladies, I take that back.

It should be, "computers don't disappoint as much as people".

Reason being. Computers are programmed to deliver, humans aren't.

I wouldn't want to change that. We are after all humans.

Most importantly, it shouldn't be only girls.

Yet, it seems so mainly because I have higher expectations for girls.

Because from countless times, boys seem to prove more hopeless to me.

So it isn't fair for the girls.

There aren't equal expectations (history has shown that it never had been)

Still, not that I hate girls/guys/anyone for that fact.

Just that the many experiences I have had led me to come to such a statement.

Nevermind that.

=)

Back from Korea. Might post a few pictures. =)

Still, being on the airplane for 6 hours each. Also in the bus for about a total of 10+/- hours, it leaves me with a total of 22 hours of nothing to do.

Besides sleep, watch movie, annoy bro.

So thats still quite a bit of free time with nothing to do.

That kind of free time does things to you.

Which has allowed a seed of thought within my mindspace to grow and flourish, blossom in fact.

Now in full bloom, the time is right to pick to fruit, before it wilts and dies.

Hopefully the seeds of the fruit will be sowed into your heads as well.

Lets hope it doesn't take over you.

Mind you, I am in a pretty, optimistic-normal state right now.

So all my thoughts are not that bias.

But maybe my perceptions will change when my emotions go downhill.

I have realised, and I'm sure you have too (if you have went through all of my posts, I am emotionally touched if you have, do let me know. XP), that for the past year(s) of blogging, my stand on Relationships have been changing at times.

I contradict myself.

Call me an ironic ass, or a hypocrite.

Still, it must be made clear, that all the points of view I have presented, hold true to me at that point of time.

Forgive me if it has ruined your life, or cause you sorrow.

I am here merely with my best interests to share my thoughts, as well as remove the plants that have grown from the seeds in my mind.

(enough plant metaphors)

Perhaps I haven't been "growing up" or "becoming closer to the universal truth", rather than moving up in a linear route, I may have been remaining in an endless Merry-Go-Round.

I'm going to try to wrap it all up (impossible I know), however, do not think badly of me, as it may be bias at this time, or it may offend you. (you are always welcome to stop reading)

Still, what ever I say now, holds true to me now.

Don't know how long that will last.

So where do I start?

This is going to be one long post.

(press CTRL and + on your keyboard to enlarge the fonts, nothing to be ashamed of, I do it too)

When I speak of love, fellow readers and friends. Let me say that I am not going to talk about the love that exists between parents, teachers, GOD (which god you believe in, I'm sure the love they all have holds true and very powerful). Or even some big version of love you all have.

Even true love.

This is because, it's impossible to accomplish it at this age.

Also, as I believe a monk has explained before (forgive me I do not know his name). That that kind of love, the you-are-my-patner kind, the nice one that leads to marriage etc, is selfish.

Selfish love.

For if it was true, or the actual L-O-V-E, both partners would be okay if the other had left him/her for another person. Whatever their descision.

That they would never fight for their love.

Simply because, they have their best interests at heart.

(i.e: Your husband/wife cheats on you and ends up with another person, you are okay with it, you don't go angry, sad, vengeful, yet you simply forgive and let the person go, no strings attached, as you want the person to be happy and have their best interests at heart.)

(EDIT 30/12: okay, bad example. thats just wrong, here's another one: the one you love has decided to go with another man/woman, and you are perfectly fine with it, and even not make him/her feel bad, for you have their best interests in heart. you want the best for them) (thanks to Hannah for pointing that out =) )

Nevermind that kind.

Or even that we-shall-marry-have-kids-and-stand-by-your-side-forever kind.

I'm talking about the "love" that exists between us teens now.

You may throw in infatuation too if you like.

But I'm stressing on the one that goes "you happy, I happy" and "live in the moment, not thinking of the future" kind. The type that seems to complete you.

Though related, I'm not talking about the "rush one gets, the type that always makes you miss a heartbeat, or even lock up, aka Infatuation. Or even puppy love for me"

Aiyoh, the one that exists now. The boyfriend, girlfriend type. You know la.

So no one compare what I'm saying here to God's Love or Parent's Love, Sibling Love.

-I'm pretty sure one day I shall laugh at myself as the boy that doesn't get the whole thing. Or how much of an ironic asshole I am, still it's not for me to think for now-

After all that I have gone through.

I can say safely, that I have no surefire way to get someone to love you.

Everyone is different.

So I hope you won't take this as a guide to get someone's heart. Yet merely as a blog post. That entertains your thoughts.

Hopefully it will help you someway.

However, I'm pretty sure that I have got a few things right.

=P

Do comment in the Cbox.

Wait, let me clear this.

I can safely say, that not only for me but also many of the boys out there.

We can't really define what we want.

But if you girls have thought that at this time we want a girlfriend. Well, thats not completely right.

That is merely secondary.

I guess most of us, merely want someone to like us back the way we like them, to care, to share, more than friends.

You get the point.

(This does not include the insincere people that just want something, be it sex.)

Girlfriends are secondary.

"Somebody to Love, Love Me"

Yes, I like Justin Bieber's songs.

Before anyone decides to devote everything to this lovey dovey relationship stuff, I must say that it isn't worth it.

The sad times aren't worth it. The times that screw one up.

I'm saying that its great to love someone/ be in a relationship.

The happy times sure are worth it.

But it isn't worth it when you go sad and all.

Or when you lose everything else for it.

Not now.

Always remember. Keep you eye on the ball. (Guys, don't look down okay)

Studies. God. Life. Family.

After that, friends, or special friends or lover, you go arrange that however you see it.

So don't lose everything for this kind of love (im tired of saying this kind of love, or how I have phrased it, it shall be refered to as love for now). It's secondary. Or Tertiary. As far as happy times go, its real sweet and all. But not for the sad times.

We are all suckers for romance aren't we.

Girls, or even guys, given the current world, don't give everything or even believe in everything that person says. Words of romance and honey-ed words will not keep anything going for long.

Try to make sure that its sincere (good luck finding that out).

I still go awww when it comes to sweet/touching things. Even believe in them, but I do realise sooner or later. So I hope everyone out there doesn't give everything just like that.

Anyway.

I am but of course expressing my thoughts. I'm sure all of you think differently.

For everyone that's in this game.

Don't be possessive.

This holds true for those that aren't together but are "courting", "trying to get someone to care more than friends" but even for for those that have a boy/girl friend.

Many many relationships have failed, simply because one is too possessive.

Bear in mind that they are still individuals, humans, and not something you own and control.

(tho you can call that person mine)

You can't wear that. You can't go to that, I'm not letting you go for that, you can't talk to that person because I say so. Don't tie your hair like that.

Everyone, that special someone isn't a slave that you have affections for.

Being a bystander, so so many relationships in school have died because one is too possessive, boy or girl.

If you are experiencing it. If you are frustrated. Please understand why.

He/She simple loves you too much.

To the extent that they are afraid of losing you.

This causes jealousy, suspicion, and all that other bad feelings.

They love you too much.

As nice as that sounds. They have to realise that everyone needs space.

Its all about trust here.

No one likes to be controlled.

So everyone should know that, before it's too late.

(time for a quote)

Power of a Relationship Lies with the one who cares less.

(yet) Power isn't happiness, it is for those who care more. -Made Of Honor

-Still, don't care to the extent that one is a control freak-

Next up, I live by a universal rule,

NEVER ask a girl/woman about her age, weight, or height.

In general physique.

UNLESS you are real close, or absolutely, positively, without a doubt sure she doesn't mind/ is proud of it.

Age applies to elder women.

This may work for guys as well.

Be nice.

No one likes bad boys/girls, unless its for a fling. Or thats how I see it, now.

Show that he/she is special.

Duh.

Care.

Effort.
Nothing can ever hold for long if no one puts in an effort. Or if only one puts in an effort. eg one sided love. It won't be soon before long before the one putting in effort realises its not a very nice situation and then leaving. Its a good thing I believe. But as with cause and effect. Effort must be put in for a result.
(a non-love related example would be how my class blog has failed)
Everything relies on effort. Really, to those that have been putting in all the effort. Let go for awhile and see what happens. Ah well.

I'm pretty sure there are many more, but it isn't coming to me right now.

Besides, everyone is different.

"I didn't forget, I'm just not remembering it right now."-Ash, Pokemon

Make sure that if you have the same feelings too for the other person, don't take to long to show it. (not saying confess, but don't hide it). No one likes waiting around forever with nothing.

Don't wait for something that won't happen, but don't go too fast either.

Conversely:

"Never teach a cow how to sing, it wastes your time, and it annoys the cow"

(thanks!)

a better chinese one would be "to play songs for the cow" (对牛弹琴)

I shall execute wordplay here.

对牛谈情 - to hit on the cow, to go for the cow. hahahahaa

English translation fails.

I'm not saying that the person of an interest is a cow.

Just that, well, depends on how you see it. (its just a metaphor!)

If you're all torn up and emo and all, just move on.

If you can that is.

=)

But of course, its fine if you don't. Right? haha.
maybe. if you can balance the universal forces. XP

Nothing is forever.

(Save the few cases that really are true love).

As much as I wish at times it would.

I'm pretty sure what's last year, is so different this year.

Humans change.

I still believe in sincerity and transparency, hope, and all that sentimental stuff.

Integrity.

But perhaps some day, as the world is continually changing me, as much as I may resist it. What may seem important to me, or what I believe in now, will matter nothing next time.

Whatever, its not for me to think.

Don't expect/hope too much.

I'm sure you'll be happier that way.

But of course, it is greed that propels man too greater heights.

I'm just saying don't go all sad that it isn't what you expect.

Respect his/her.

Decision/ or anything.

You can never force someone to do something they dislike. Only encourage.
Assume you managed to force someone to do something, will you feel victory? Maybe so, but it pretty much ruins all the atmosphere, and makes it all awkward. Leaving you with regret. So unless your a boss or even a paying customer, with no ties/futher meetings with that person, forcing someone to do something doesn't make life happy.

Appreciate what you have now, in the moment.

Nothing is forever (exclude the few cases), appreciate what you have, while balancing what you want/expect. Before it's gone. It'll be too late.

If it's over and gone, while, just appreciate that you had what you had when you had it. (LOL)

At least you had something.

Special.

Always remember to keep your eye on the ball.

Think less.

I'm not going to ask to Don't think too much.

If I say Don't think of an elephant.

What will you think of?

Exactly.

Everything is never as it seems, yada yada, and some things aren't meant to be thought of.

Just stay happy.

For the pessimists:

Hope is the worst of all evils, for it prolongs the torment of man.

-Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

Expectation is the root of all heartache

-William Shakespeare

For the optimists:

Don't really have one.

OR, Don't need one.

So long as you believe?

Here you go.

“Hope is the most exciting thing in life and if you honestly believe that love is out there, it will come. And even if it doesn't come straight away there is still that chance all through your life that it will.” - Josh Hartnett

“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.”

“Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, to those who still love even though they've been hurt before.”

"I have not failed, I have merely found another way that doesn't work"

[PS:special thanks to someone for this one :) ]

So, just enjoy what you have. Fail or not. and the less you try to screw yourself up, the happier you stay.

Girls/Guys being sought after, please don't try to be sympathetic and put up with it. It ain't right. It's hard. Sure he/she may be happy. But only for awhile. As with lying/telling late. It's best to come clean straight at times. It may seem to hurt more. But trust me, if he/she finds out later, see which one has more hit points.

Conversely, much as I like openess and transparency, I do know, that there are things that aren't meant to be asked, at least not at a time. Besides, whats the fun and mistique if all is gone? :P

So long as you try. Then no one can use that stupid : "You never try, you never know" statement. You can silently say, "But I do know". Try, do your best, in everything, its all that matters too.

These things aren't worth losing everything for.

and this isn't everything. Not now.

Notice how I can contradict one point and another?

It all depends on how you see it.

The way I see it now, stay happy. and content.

For that is what I am, now.

=)

Given all that has happened, I'm happy and content.

(Hope I don't contradict myself)

Besides, Christmas is tomorrow.

forgive and forget, tis' the season to be jolly.

fa la la la la. la la la la.

(btw, I finally understood why some use Xmas! Because Christ relates to the Cross. +, which Christmas = +mas. (cross la) Which then when typed, comes out as an X (slanted cross, or the cross cross) get it?

teehee.

Another quote. Gee, I love quotes.

Love is like a quick cup of coffee, if you don't have the guts to love someone share it while its hot, you'll end up drinking it yourself. -Made Of Honor

Not really related. Nevermind.

Bf/Gf relationships really aren't for our age. That game is a little too viscous. But like alcohol and porn and bad words, things forbidden are always somewhat appealing.

So be my guest if you want a relationship. Just warning you that you should not risk everything for it.

Relationships are meant to be relaxing, not stressful (again remove all the serious marriage, family, kids, yada yada stuff. No need to think so far at this age.)

Study! SPM next year.

But have fun.

Lastly, take it slow.

No need to move so fast.
Even if it isn't going anywhere, relax la.

Appreciate what you have.

(I must have said this a few times already, cuz I try to appreciate.)

So, good luck to those that try, and all the best? Remember, study, this is not primary. Take it slow. Relax.

You know what.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle.

Slow it down

Make it stop--

Or else my heart is going to pop

'Cause it's too much

Yeah, it's a lot

To be something I'm not

I'm a fool

Out of love

'Cause I just can't get enough

I am just a little girl lost in the moment

I'm so scared but I don't show it

I can't figure it out

It's bringing me down I know

I've got to let it go

And just enjoy The Show.

=)

Merry Christmas and Happy holidays.

Be happy.

(3.37PM, bout 2 hours, minus lunch outside)

Movie Mania + Suicide?

Hey all.

Before I start, here's something which caught my eye.

http://www.allvoices.com/contributed-news/7606212-youths-45-minute-suicide-countdown-on-facebook

http://joshuaongys.com/2010/12/19-yrs-old-malaysian-alviss-kong-jumped-off-building-committing-suicide-after-leaving-facebook-message/

http://www.kwongwah.com.my/news/2010/12/10/1.html

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/12/11/nation/7600075&sec=nation

Sad.

I read this in Sin Chiew Daily
Well, for one, everyone may blame him, call him stupid and all.
Yes, it is a dumb action,
but is it entirely HIS fault?
What about the girl?
Unsure of the specifics, but well, the girl is at fault too, right?
Then again, she has a choice.
So, who is at fault?
At the same time, it is both of them, and none of them.

You can't blame the guy, its his life, (and he did say, love game, I can't play) and as for the girl, she may seem to be cruel to him (one of the links there I saw), but it could be only due to him. Him over-thinking things, or even pushing it. The girl may have put him down gently, but he was persistent.

Look, I am at no right to comment on other people and their love life.

But one thing for sure. At least to me. Is that. Suicide ain't worth it. Especially for this sort of relationship case. Not even married.

If any of you do have a suicide thought. Come on, drop it. It just goes to show that well, the guy/gal, ain't worth it. and doesn't deserve you. Don't throw away your life for someone that doesn't appreciate you in the first place.

Fine, screw them, become gay (no offense intended) or even end up addicted to online games. Anything. But not kill yourself over someone like that.

For the record though, as dumb as his action may be. I respect him for doing that somewhat brave, selfless act of "love". Although I do not condone it. Not many do that. Especially on facebook. Still a dumb thing to do though. But of course, he see it as a worthwhile thing to do.

I still think girls aren't worth DYING for though. Or money, or fame, for that matter.

May he rest in peace, Alviss Kong.

OK. Serious stuff aside.
Been watching lots of movies, and chuck, fringe too lately.
Whee.

Haven't watched Tangled.
But I want to.... eeeeeee..... waiting for the BluRay to come out.....
Can't believe that a digital art can cause MILD infatuation within me. :P


Pretty. :D
(You should watch the trailers. She looks prettier)

Anyways. Nice movie though~~

Next one is Secret.
不能说的秘密 。。。

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Secret_%282007_film%29

I'm not sure why, but I really like this movie.
I watched it TWICE.
Never done that before.

I also love the music.
So so so nice.
The female lead is pretty too.
As for Jay Chou, well, erm, he looks good, even in InitialD he did.

Storyline is really unexpected and great.
Whee.
Here's Part One if you are interested. You can find the rest of the parts on the person's account.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hezuDAbDVKE

Credits to Fivesssssz.

Or maybe I'm just a sucker for romance. :P

Still, i regret that I never took up music when i was young. piano, guitar, violin. Makes me feel left out and cacat-ed at times. Especially me being surrounded with friends who know at least one instrument. And also some that are super talented.

Ah well, at least I play one instrument.
The Computer. =)
(yes, its not that kind of instrument, and it makes me look damn sad, but hey, better than saying I don't know how to play anything at all to people. so yeah.)

*tries to look proud, but fails, epically* :P

So nice. :3
Waah~~~~~

(sorry, must sound really erm, fangirl like) XP

Enjoy life! While you still have it.
Toodle do.

Fresh Mints and bits and pieces

Here's something I'd like to share.

See, those metal boxes and plastic boxes?

I ate all of the mints from there for this year.

Theres erm, 9 boxes of Eclipse, 2 Extra Mint, 1 Clorets, 1 Tick Tack there i believe.

One box of Eclipse has like, 50 mints.

So, this year, I had an approx. 450+ xx = at least 500 mints.

500 mints.

In a duration of 11less than months.

An average of about 2 mints a day. Minus-ing the few i may have shared, dropped, lost (less than 20).

I can have up to 5 per day.

Erm, its like 2 boxes more than last year.

Ahahaha, been eatin' mints since form 2 i believe.

Cuz bad breath ticks everyone (not only girls) off.

Still, it doesnt completely prevent me from having bad breath.

Even with brushing, drink LOTS of water [im an aquaholic in school, dessert camel at home], oral care etc etc and these mints, Im quite sure there still are times. XP

A little really amounts to alot....

U must think I'm a maniac or something (heck, even I think there's something wrong with me when i see the empty boxes).

I was spring cleaning my room by the way. looks better now. lol.

no longer organized mess. (oxymoron!)

Ahh, the things I do for .... .erm..... love? acceptance?

lets call all these things, things.

So, it goes like this: Ahh, the things I do for things. =.=

I'm not crazy ................ I'm just a little ........... unwell.

I know, right now you can't tell. [link]

Anyways, I guess, perhaps, some really deep, dark thought of mine, shall not be expose to the Net. I think I'll just pen them down in a book. (aka, diary, which is mainly used as a term for cow products now.)

Or maybe if everyone can get me a tablet. Lol, then i can immediately pen them digitally when i have inspiration. XP, it doesnt have to be an iPad, even the local CSL DroidPad would make me happy.

Hehe, wishful thinking.

Right, time to wake up now.

Seriously, though I've been trying to.

Next years another year. With much bigger challenges.

Wake up dammit.

=.=''

My friend Xiao Yi did ask me to cheer up on cbox. =) thanks.

But I'm as cheered up as I can be. =)

I'm just cynical.

"Behind every cynic, is a frustrated romantic" -Peter Bishop, Fringe

=|

我不知道这算不算是我的初恋，

但是我永远都不会忘记他的味道，

就好像在最热最热的下午，

吃最口味的红豆冰，

又甜又冰，

冷到舌头都痛了，

但是，来不及再去感受那个滋味，

就融化掉了 。。。。。。。。

-初恋红豆冰-

Translation:

I'm not sure if this counts as my first love,

but I will never ever forget its taste,

for it is like eating the most delicious ice kacang,

on the hottest day,

sweet and cold,

till my tongue hurts,

yet, before having the chance to savior its taste again,

it has melted away.

-ice kacang puppy love (malaysian made movie,nice)-

Aih,

我很累。

I Love You, Trust Me I Do

Hello!

Right, please forgive me if you came here in search of a confession post.
You can close the windows now if you did.

Right Red [X] on all versions of Windows with no extra customization to the shell
Left Red Circle on the Mac
Left [X] on regular Linux Distros (Ubuntu, Macbuntu)

Because somethings are not meant to be exposed online just like that. That much I know.

Yeah, haha, right. This shall serve as a post for those in search of understanding.
Or seriously bored and want to understand my mindspace.

Besides, I have that urge again, so its best I get it out before it consumes me.
Hahaha. As much as I may loathe the sleepless nights, unsound thought box...I love thinking.
Really I do, It seems to be a past time.

That aside. Back to the title.
Those 3 words.
Simple meaning. Hard to say.
Yeah right.

Something you mean shouldn't be hard to say now is it.
Come to think of it, when's the last time you said that to Mom or Dad?

But pushing those love aside, I'm sure we're all paying attention to that thing that doesn't need our attention at this time.
Romantic Love.
As in the one that exists between boy and girl.
Screw romance, but I'm refering to well. Like Like?
Hahahaha.

I'm pretty sure you'll remember the person you first said those words to, and mean it.
I'm not talking about the kindergarten happy-girl-so-i-like or the confused times when you say it because of influences from the movie scene.
"Owh, this is the moment I should say it, say la, or else the other party will cry."

No, the moment where you are sure you mean it. The part where you are not pressured to say it. The part you do it, because you want to.
Look, if you're going to start thinking that things will change and that we don't know what love means now at this age.
Hell, I agree with you.
Things will change. What do you expect. This ain't no fairytale.
I guess it's good enough for me now that I understand what I feel, how I feel.

If you are going to argue about what happened in the past. Deeply buried in this blog, well, I learn. What's love, what's infatuation.

Maybe I'll learn something else next time from all this.

Say it because it feels right.
I'm not going to speak for the other guys/girls, some of them just say it with a motive.
But for me, I mean it if I say it.

If I say to a girl that she looks nice in that dress. I mean it. I don't say it for the fun of it.
(this applies to real friend-to-friend, no pressure, and no motive, sucking up for something.)

As pirated as my software on my computer here is, I'm genuine when I use those words. All three of them.

Due to the meaning it contains, if you say it with that meaning, for real. I'm sure you'll remember who that person was. Even when you get married.

I quote from a movie, as fun as sex is, it's even better when there is meaning to it,when there love.

APply that here. Works too. Its all about meaning. and, some other things.

Bottom point is, you'll remember that one you used those words on, and you mean it.

OKay, now for the solution to another issue!
All you people out there that's brokenhearted due to some reason..

for the record, a heart can't be broken, its all muscle, heartachce,pain,bleed all works, not braking. -Adapted from V =)

This crazy little thing called love (still refering to the boy-girl, "romantic", selfish kinda love).
I'm pretty sure some of you/ or even all, have felt that stupid feeling of jealousy.
Suspicion.
"What's she doing now."
"Owh, here he comes, now what"
"What could have happened in there?"

Whether you're a guy or gal, I'm sure this sort of thing has happened.
Some of us aren't even in a relationship with that person.

How?

Well, it's all about trust.
and some other things.

XP

So, how to you eliminate the green eyed monster within you?
Well, you have to learn.
You must trust that person right?
So trust them.
There's no need to be suspicious, overreacting.
Not married also.
Once you learn to trust, and that it may just be all in your head, it gets easier.
Not saying they go away completely, it takes more patience to do that.

But yeah. Trust them.

What if they cheat on you? Or end up falling for the other one?

Well, if you tried, let them now, do what's right to you, understand, yada yada, and still didn't turn out to be they way it should be, so be it.

It just isn't meant to be.

"If you love someone, set them free, if they come back to you, it was meant to be."

Whee. (lol that rhymes!)

If they CHEAT, as in when in a relationship, married, commitments, then well, shows how much they do not deserve you, and that well, it couldn't be.

If they do betray, well, sucks to be you. Nothing much you can do. But learn from mistake, and be more careful next time.

There will always be a next time, in some other form perhaps.

-Reminder: however, if you see you girlfriend's friend who's a guy that's close come slapping her backside or something more. You'd best check.

Nothing wrong with asking. crystal clear, removes all crappy stuff like suspicion or mindless thinking.

Well, do thats it.

You'll remember your first that you meant. (if you're a sentimental kind)
and so long as you learn to trust, and not suspect too much, the world will be a much happier place.


I hope I don't go against my mindset now by next year.
Somethings it's easy to feel one thing now, different thing much later.
Ah well, can't help that.

Good luck with staying happy/emotionally stable.

Toodle do.

=)

Mindspace

Hey everyone, well, holidays have been pretty great, and I’ve been kept occupied, so much to do! And to watch (movies,fringe,chuck, whee~) to the extent I have once again neglected my blog here. So well, I had the inspiration to blog this like one week ago, but then, I’m a real procrastinator, so well, nows the time~

Prepare for another Great Wall Of Text, though I’m sure it’s gonna be a shorter one than my other walls.

Let’s talk. Erm, I’ll start with my previous post, the one on Special Friends.

Honestly speaking, special friends, what is it?

Is it a good perspective that people use to comfort themselves when they are unable to achieve the other status they want?

You know, as they say, a special friend is more than a friend, but less than a lover?

That grey area between friend and lover?

That area that so many guys seem to dread, and seem to hate being stuck at? The area that a very popular Nice Guy culture seems to put most guys that want something more, but are unable to?

Or is it merely an excuse for the guy/girl to obtain benefits from the person, with no strings attached?

No Terms and conditions?

No commitment?

A way of labeling the person as such, which eliminates all issues of love, which solves the problem of commitment, in a very nice way, and at the same time being warmer than just friends

Still, you sad people out there, who somehow got hurt by that guy or gal, I guess there isn’t any harm to being a Special Friend to that person now is it?

Let’s look at this optimistically (coz if I look at it pessimistically I’ll end up in an endless vortex of emoness, which isn’t exactly the best place to be, trust me I’ve been there, done that) : Or would you prefer to be not friends at all?

So I guess, special friend, is all of the above, how you want to think of it, there is no such thing as wrong or right on this.

A reason to stay close, but not be a boyfriend/girlfriend. A status that defines a person that you like them, but not romantically. A just friends, not lovers status. No lovey dovey commitments.

Is that good? We’ll figure it out yourself, I don’t want to take out all the fun~

Fruit.

Well, it’s a word I decided to drop in, the word was on my mind. XP

Mindspace.

I think that’s what blogger is.

Same with Facebook (what’s on your mind?) and that Live Messenger (Share a quick message).

By the way, I dislike and refute the new version of messenger, sticking to the old one.

Back on track, this online webspaces, lets us share what’s on our mind.

Publically,

In essence, privately public.

Yay an oxymoron.

Without a doubt, it is that ironic expression I’ve just used.

This is because, those things you have on your mind, which are supposedly private and exclusive to certain people, are being made available online. For the world to see.

Thoughts, fantasies, ideas, lyrics, the food you eat, what you want, feelings, emotions, all being published online.

You know, I think Facebook is a cool tool, but it takes away the people relations on a much more intimate level.

Screw the people who break up online. Or sms, IM, I think that person deserves at least a face-to-face notification, not some notification you see on the top left corner of the monitor, and also the Message Received From : XXX that you see on your phones.

Same thing vice versa. These webtools have become a great invention for people to do all that mushy,mushy,touchy feely, awkward-ky, wierdy stuff online.

To put it bluntly, it’s a great way for people with no guts,bravery,balls to confess/breakup/declare war.

Joking about the last part. Im saying it takes out the whole people feeling/touch into those things that deserve more.

A letter at least la.

Think about it, one day are you going to tell your daughter that the first boy who confessed to you was online? Doesn’t seem very romantic to me.

Speaking of first times and romantics.

Do first times matter? (besides losing your virginity,baby, and all that other important stuff)

I’m talking about first time at Starbucks. Or Baskin Robbins, sharing food [thinking of all the wonderful sweeties now cuz i'm hungryy], movie with a guy/girl that likes you, first time on LRT~ All that little things. (As little as they may be, they mean big, a lot. PS: oxymoron?)

Sentimentally, they mean a lot. But, well, ish, I’m not gonna deconstruct my thoughts here on that.

Owh yeah, my first Starbucks was with my cousin) in 2009, I craved starbucks after that. But my second one, was with him again, about one year after that. =| see how much of a procrastinator I am? XP

As with romance. Gosh, as much as I do not believe in it. I’m still a sucker for one.

It doesn’t take much to make me go awwwhhh and all warm N’ fuzzy inside. Sensitive and all.

Even the movies, touching ones. Emotionally, not physically erotic movies.

Though it takes me now less than 2 hours to shake of the feeling and come back to reality.

Hyroxide.

Second word. XP. Thanks Gee Keat. =)

So, blogging, FB, quick message on IM (Instant Messaging), do this things reveal too much about my personal self?

Perhaps they have made me to easy to read, like an open book.

Perhaps I should stop, or start penning my thoughts into a diary, or make it exclusive to certain people.

Private stuff made public.

How? =|

Though I must admit that dumping my thoughts onto this blog here, really does help disable certain figments from resurfacing into my mindspace.

Simply put: It stops me from thinking about one particular thing again, which would be too much than it already is.

My blog, IM and FB, do give you a glimpse into my mindspace now doesn’t it?

Though not everything, but it does give you a fair bit.

So, should I stop/cut down and make them more private and exclusive?

Talk to me. Comment.SMS, IM, anything.

Silent Gratitude isn’t much use to anyone. – G.B Stern

Till then. =)